This beautiful globe was made by my Friend Forever.. Stevie
Just sit back, and learn a little something about me. I have placed one of
my favorite songs called "Paradise" by
of this page, as I find his songs extremely calming and healing for me. I just
love his music! I hope you find this site inspirational and will return often.
My name is Gloria. I am currently residing in the United States. I am
struggling to come to terms with the existence of my others (little ones) and
move toward healing the disorders that I am suffering as a result of many, many
years of extreme abuse; physical, sexual, emotional and ritual.
The definitions of the disorders provided below are for informational purposes
only and are not intended to be used as diagnostic tools. Only a licensed
mental health professional can make that diagnosis and assessment. If you have
any questions regarding the symptoms, it is suggested you contact a licensed
mental health professional.
The definitions for the disorders may be
some of you to read. I have only just recently begun my journey towards healing
and it will be a long, hard fought battle for me to rid myself of my demons. My
family of supporters is with me in the trenches and I value their strength and
wisdom. I know I will often need to lean on them and draw on their hopes for the
My hope is that this web site will be an inspirational
project for me. To help my self and my "little's" I am in the process of
creating a safe place that they may visit without fear of harm or hurt. My aim
here is to provide a safe haven of
felt warmth and care for myself, others who have suffered from abuse and their
supporters. A tranquil atmosphere, where we may all visit to gain some
understanding and perhaps the strength and courage to continue with our
journeys. Some of you may wish to share your thoughts, experiences, and
insights. I have provided space to do just that under
Please read my privacy statementand use
discretion. Here are some of the disorders I am currently struggling with. Please use the scroll bar below to access the disorders. If you are feeling unsafe,
or come back another time to read the information below. Thank you.
The presence of two or more distinct identities or personality states (each with its own relatively enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to and thinking about the environment and self).
At least two of these identities or personality states recurrently take control of the person's behavior. Inability to recall important personal information that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during Alcohol Intoxication) or a general medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures).
Note: In children, the symptoms are not attributable to imaginary playmates or other fantasy play. Dissociative Identity Disorder is also referred to as Multiple Personality Disorder
Fibromyalgia is a common and disabling disorder affecting 2-4% of the population, women more often than men. Despite the condition's frequency, the diagnosis is often missed. Patients with Fibromyalgia usually ache all over, sleep poorly, are stiff on waking, and are tired all day. They are prone to headaches, memory and concentration problems, dizziness, numbness and tingling, itching, fluid retention, crampy abdominal or pelvic pain and diarrhea, and several other symptoms. There are no diagnostic lab or x-ray abnormalities, but a physician can confirm the diagnosis by finding tender points in characteristic locations. Fibromyalgia often runs in families, suggesting an inherited predisposition. It may lie dormant until triggered by an infection, injury, stress, or sleep disturbance. It is closely related to the chronic fatigue and irritable bowel syndromes and to migraines. Some have suggested that these are all just different facets of the same underlying disorder. Stress also worsens Fibromyalgia symptoms. If you have ongoing problems with depression or anxiety, consider seeking help for them from your family doctor or a psychiatrist. Anxiety and depression may arise as symptoms of Fibromyalgia and in turn cause insomnia, leading to worsening of the underlying problem.
The person has been exposed to a traumatic event in which both of the following were present:
the person experienced, witnessed, or was confronted with an event or events that involved actual or threatened death or serious injury, or a threat to the physical integrity of self or others. The person's response involved intense fear, helplessness, or horror. Note: In children, this may be expressed instead by disorganized or agitated behavior. The traumatic event is persistently re-experienced in one (or more) of the following ways:
recurrent and intrusive distressing recollections of the event, including images, thoughts, or perceptions. Note: In young children, repetitive play may occur in which themes or aspects of the trauma are expressed.
recurrent distressing dreams of the event. Note: In children, there may be frightening dreams without recognizable content.
acting or feeling as if the traumatic event were recurring (includes a sense of reliving the experience, illusions, hallucinations, and
Dissociative flashback episodes, including those that occur on awakening or when intoxicated). Note: In young children, trauma-specific re-enactment may occur.
intense psychological distress at exposure to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event.
physiological reactivity on exposure to internal or external cues that symbolize or resemble an aspect of the traumatic event.
Persistent avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma and numbing of general responsiveness (not present before the trauma), as indicated by three (or more) of the following:
efforts to avoid thoughts, feelings, or conversations associated with the trauma
efforts to avoid activities, places, or people that arouse recollections of the trauma
inability to recall an important aspect of the trauma
markedly diminished interest or participation in significant activities
feeling of detachment or estrangement from others
restricted range of affect (e.g., unable to have loving feelings)
sense of a foreshortened future (e.g., does not expect to have a career, marriage, children, or a normal life span)
Persistent symptoms of increased arousal (not present before the trauma), as indicated by two (or more) of the following:
difficulty falling or staying asleep
irritability or outbursts of anger
exaggerated startle response
Duration of the disturbance (symptoms above) is more than 1 month.
The disturbance causes clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) What is irritable bowel syndrome (IBS)? Irritable bowel syndrome (IBS) is an intestinal disorder that causes the following:
changes in bowel habits
IBS has inaccurately been called by many names, including the following: colitis mucous colitis
functional bowel disease
IBS is called a functional disorder because there is no sign of disease when the colon is examined. Because physicians have been unable to find an organic cause, IBS often has been thought to be caused by emotional conflict or stress. While stress may worsen IBS symptoms, research suggests that other factors also are important.
IBS often causes a great deal of discomfort and distress, but it is not believed to:
cause permanent harm to the intestines.
lead to intestinal bleeding of the bowel.
lead to a serious disease such as cancer.
It has not been shown to lead to serious, organic diseases, nor has a link been established between IBS and inflammatory bowel diseases such as Crohn's disease or ulcerative colitis.
What causes irritable bowel syndrome? The digestion and propulsion of nutrients and fluids through the gastrointestinal system (GI) is a very complicated and very well organized process. The GI tract has its own intrinsic muscles and nerves that connect, like an electrical circuit, to the spinal cord and brain. Neuromuscular events occurring in the GI tract is relayed to the brain through neural connections, and the response of the brain is also relayed back to the gastrointestinal tract. As a result of this activity, motility and sensation in the bowel is generated. An abnormality in this process results in a disordered propulsion of the intestinal contents, which generates the sensation of pain.
The person with IBS has a colon that is more sensitive and reactive than usual, so it responds strongly to stimuli that would not affect others. The colon muscle of a person with IBS begins to spasm after only mild stimulation or ordinary events such as the following:
distention from gas or other material in the colon
Women with IBS seem to have more symptoms during their menstrual periods, suggesting that reproductive hormones can increase IBS symptoms.
What are triggers for IBS? The most likely triggers for IBS are diet and emotional stress. Scientists have some clues as to why this happens. Consider the following:
diet Eating causes contractions of the colon, normally causing an urge to have a bowel movement within 30 to 60 minutes after a meal. Fat in the diet can cause contractions of the colon following a meal. With IBS, however, the urge may come sooner, accompanied by cramps and diarrhea.
stress Stress stimulates colonic spasm in people with IBS. Although not completely understood, it is believed to be because the colon is partly controlled by the nervous system. Counseling and stress reduction techniques can help relieve the symptoms of IBS, however, this does not mean IBS is the result of a personality disorder. It is at least partly a disorder of colon motility.
What are the symptoms of IBS? The following are the most common symptoms of IBS. However, each individual may experience symptoms differently. Symptoms may include:
crampy abdominal pain
painful constipation and/or diarrhea.
alternating constipation and diarrhea
mucus may be in the bowel movement
Bleeding, fever, weight loss, and persistent, severe pain are not symptoms of IBS, but indicate other problems. The symptoms of IBS may resemble other medical conditions or problems. Always consult your physician for a diagnosis.
How is irritable bowel syndrome diagnosed?
Your physician will obtain a thorough medical history, perform a physical examination, and obtain screening laboratories to assess for infection and inflammation. The laboratory tests, imaging studies, and procedures to be performed will be dictated by the history and physical examination. Tests and procedures that your physician may order may include the following:
blood tests (to determine if you are anemic, have an infection, or have an illness caused by inflammation or irritation)
urine analysis and culture (to help assess for urinary tract infections)
stool culture - checks for the presence of abnormal bacteria in the digestive tract that may cause diarrhea and other problems. A small sample of stool is collected and sent to a laboratory by your physician's office. In two or three days, the test will show whether abnormal bacteria are present.
fecal occult blood test - checks for hidden (occult) blood in the stool. It involves placing a very small amount of stool on a special card, which is then tested in the physician's office or sent to a laboratory; if blood is present, it may suggest an inflammatory source in the gastrointestinal tract.
abdominal x-rays - a diagnostic test which uses invisible electromagnetic energy beams to produce images of internal tissues, bones, and organs onto film.
abdominal ultrasound - a diagnostic imaging technique which uses high-frequency sound waves and a computer to create images of blood vessels, tissues, and organs. Ultrasounds are used to view internal organs as they function, and to assess blood flow through various vessels. Gel is applied to the area of the body being studied, such as the abdomen, and a wand called a transducer is placed on the skin. The transducer sends sound waves into the body that bounce off organs and return to the ultrasound machine, producing an image on the monitor. A picture or video tape of the test is also made so it can be reviewed in the future.
Five (or more) of the following symptoms have been present during the same 2-week period and represent a change from previous functioning; at least one of the symptoms is either: (1) depressed mood or (2) loss of interest or pleasure. (Note: Do not include symptoms that are clearly due to a general medical condition, or mood-incongruent delusions or hallucinations.)
depressed mood most of the day, nearly every day, as indicated by either subjective report (e.g., feels sad or empty) or observation made by others (e.g., appears tearful). Note: In children and adolescents, can be irritable mood.
markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities most of the day, nearly every day (as indicated by either subjective account or observation made by others)
significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain (e.g., a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month), or decrease or increase in appetite nearly every day. Note: In children, consider failure to make expected weight gains.
insomnia or hyper-somnia nearly every day
psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly every day (observable by others, not merely subjective feelings of restlessness or being slowed down)
fatigue or loss of energy nearly every day
feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt (which may be delusional) nearly every day (not merely self-reproach or guilt about being sick)
diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, nearly every day (either by subjective account or as observed by others)
recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide
The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.
The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition (e.g., hypothyroidism).
The symptoms are not better accounted for by Bereavement, i.e., after the loss of a loved one, the symptoms persist for longer than 2 months or are characterized by marked functional impairment, morbid preoccupation with worthlessness, suicidal ideation, psychotic symptoms, or psychomotor retardation
Borderline Personality DisorderA pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships,
self-image, and affects, and marked impulsivity beginning by early adulthood
and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Note: Do not
include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in Criterion 5.
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships
characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and
markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging
(e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).
Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in
behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense
episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours
and only rarely more than a few days)
Chronic feelings of emptiness
Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g.,
frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe Dissociative